“letsjustbefriends”
thewordsofdreadappear
arefocused
concieved
and
delivered.
(ouch)
butthisisdifferentsomehow
idontknowitjustseemsatypical
forthissortofthingthewayshesaidit
wasnotsarcastichurtingorangry
(didhereyemoisten?)
yesthisisdifferent
shesaysthat shelovesme
andimight believe
(teethgnashinghandwringinggreatsorrowofsoul)
heryet.
feelingsofsadnessyetgripme
(imusthavedoneSOMETHINGwrong?)
andsheconsolesmewithhergentleletters
”itsjustme”shetellsme
andshesaysnottoworry
< laugh >
worry
noishouldntworry
iloveherverymuch(cantromancenomore)
andishouldntworry
istruggleandiambeginningtosee
thatshelovesmeandwantstobemyfriend
andiloveherandwanttobeherfriend
istillwrestle.
ilookatherpictureonthewallandsaytomyself
”mywonderfulfriendinvermont”